August 2nd, 2012
Worked my balls off at the YMCA again yesterday. This was in lieu of donating plasma so I had to push it a little. i lifted for an hour and a half then did almost as much cardio. My arms seem to be in a quick recovery phase again, but my back is not. The compound rower hidden in the cardio room downstairs really jacks my back up. Tomorrow I'm gonna focus on chest and legs to give the rest of my body a break. Checked into the homeless shelter around 8:30, the food was neither awesome nor adequate, luckily I had bought some protein supplements to consume earlier that day. No sense lifting weights if you're not properly 'proteinated'. One rule of thumb I've learned about bodybuilding is 'more protein, less carbs' and you definitely want to avoid carbs after 7pm as late night digestion can impair your bodies muscle repair function. At my current body weight I'm supposed to consume 250 grams of protein per day to maximize potential muscle gains. That's a lot of protein and getting all of it is no small feat, especially on my practically non-existent budget. I wish I had a big box of those MetRX protien brownies my mothers friend gave me a few years back. 16 grams of high quality protein in a 2x8x1 inch square. Taste like monkey though, but most protein supplements do.
Had a textual tift with a girl on facebook last night about a comment I made on one of her posts. Honestly don't even remember what I said, pretty sure it purely off the cuff. She told me that she feel like I insulted her and that I'm constantly trying to 'one up' her on facebook. I replied that I don't even know what comment she's referring to and re-iterated a problem I've been having with a handful of people lately. I wish everyone would stop taking my emotional inventory and quit expecting me to curb my speech to conform to their sensibilities. Basically I'm gonna say whatever the fuck I want to say, deal with it. Admittedly I probably need more experience practicing 'Right Speech' in my life, but I consider people on facebook to be my friends, so I'm torn between actually being myself with regard to them... or being someone else. I'd rather be myself. Problem is 'myself' has gone through some major changes the last few months and I think many of my friends are in a state of social shock with regards to the new me. I'm constantly defeated by my 'self' when I view it as something external. It becomes an adversary that needs to be dealt with, and that kind of thinking only leads me to even more internal struggle.
Jess sent me a facebook message last night and said she enjoyed or non-coffee coffee date yesterday, and would like to challenge me to a game of chess sometime. Adding that she took 4th place in a chess tournament in high school. I have to wonder about the timing of this request. S.C. The local grandmaster of coffee house Chess in these parts is my usual opponent. I always play him, even though I never win, it's a great learning experience. S.C also told me that he's taking a break from Chess for a while to see if he can't get some fresh perspective on the game. Oddly enough I never mentioned to Jess that I even played Chess, she just sort of pulled it out of the ether during our discussion on spirituality. More conversations... less confrontations. I'm extremely prone to thinking I'm right all the time, yet strangely no one would call me a very confident person. Would I be doing what I'm doing now if I had an overabundance of self confidence? I highly doubt it. Can I do what needs to be done without thinking that it's the right thing to do? Is this the crux of becoming a spiritual warrior? Need to get back to my meditation routine. My next Buddhism book is 'The Three Pillars Of Zen' and then 'Deepening Your Meditation' by H.H. The Dalai Lama, after that who knows. Maybe another Thich Naht Hahn book.
Worked my balls off at the YMCA again yesterday. This was in lieu of donating plasma so I had to push it a little. i lifted for an hour and a half then did almost as much cardio. My arms seem to be in a quick recovery phase again, but my back is not. The compound rower hidden in the cardio room downstairs really jacks my back up. Tomorrow I'm gonna focus on chest and legs to give the rest of my body a break. Checked into the homeless shelter around 8:30, the food was neither awesome nor adequate, luckily I had bought some protein supplements to consume earlier that day. No sense lifting weights if you're not properly 'proteinated'. One rule of thumb I've learned about bodybuilding is 'more protein, less carbs' and you definitely want to avoid carbs after 7pm as late night digestion can impair your bodies muscle repair function. At my current body weight I'm supposed to consume 250 grams of protein per day to maximize potential muscle gains. That's a lot of protein and getting all of it is no small feat, especially on my practically non-existent budget. I wish I had a big box of those MetRX protien brownies my mothers friend gave me a few years back. 16 grams of high quality protein in a 2x8x1 inch square. Taste like monkey though, but most protein supplements do.
Had a textual tift with a girl on facebook last night about a comment I made on one of her posts. Honestly don't even remember what I said, pretty sure it purely off the cuff. She told me that she feel like I insulted her and that I'm constantly trying to 'one up' her on facebook. I replied that I don't even know what comment she's referring to and re-iterated a problem I've been having with a handful of people lately. I wish everyone would stop taking my emotional inventory and quit expecting me to curb my speech to conform to their sensibilities. Basically I'm gonna say whatever the fuck I want to say, deal with it. Admittedly I probably need more experience practicing 'Right Speech' in my life, but I consider people on facebook to be my friends, so I'm torn between actually being myself with regard to them... or being someone else. I'd rather be myself. Problem is 'myself' has gone through some major changes the last few months and I think many of my friends are in a state of social shock with regards to the new me. I'm constantly defeated by my 'self' when I view it as something external. It becomes an adversary that needs to be dealt with, and that kind of thinking only leads me to even more internal struggle.
Jess sent me a facebook message last night and said she enjoyed or non-coffee coffee date yesterday, and would like to challenge me to a game of chess sometime. Adding that she took 4th place in a chess tournament in high school. I have to wonder about the timing of this request. S.C. The local grandmaster of coffee house Chess in these parts is my usual opponent. I always play him, even though I never win, it's a great learning experience. S.C also told me that he's taking a break from Chess for a while to see if he can't get some fresh perspective on the game. Oddly enough I never mentioned to Jess that I even played Chess, she just sort of pulled it out of the ether during our discussion on spirituality. More conversations... less confrontations. I'm extremely prone to thinking I'm right all the time, yet strangely no one would call me a very confident person. Would I be doing what I'm doing now if I had an overabundance of self confidence? I highly doubt it. Can I do what needs to be done without thinking that it's the right thing to do? Is this the crux of becoming a spiritual warrior? Need to get back to my meditation routine. My next Buddhism book is 'The Three Pillars Of Zen' and then 'Deepening Your Meditation' by H.H. The Dalai Lama, after that who knows. Maybe another Thich Naht Hahn book.
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