July 9th, 2012
The Truth, the real Truth of Reality has already struck. It is and it is not like an arrow in flight. Real Truth, Universal Truth is manifesting from second to second, for all the seconds of my life. No one needs to search for the Truth and in Truth, no one does. Don't seek the Truth, realize that everything is part of The Truth. Dainin Katagiri says; "Your peaceful harmonious life is already here - Look!". Just Look! Another expression of Katagiri's that I like is; "It's not for us to say what the Universe will or will not give us...". But whatever it does give us , whatever 'happens' to us... isn't that Universal Truth? I believe it is. We have Truth, we have Serenity, we have The Three Jewels, The Four Noble Truths, The Eightfold Path, The Four Immeasurable Minds, and even Enlightenment, right now! Right fucking now! Or we can if we so choose, and choose to put in work of a very non-working nature. My weightlifting coach Darius told me;
" I hate those macho assholes at the gym, fitness is for everyone."
The way to Enlightenment is the same, we can't find it for ourselves unless we are willing to accept that Enlightenment (even for ourselves) is for everyone and then seek it for the sake of the many (all) instead of the one. The World is an 'Us' not a 'Me' and a 'You'.
Yesterday my friend told me she has Lymes disease, she had it for two weeks before she went to the doctor and found out. She is concerned that it may have gotten to her brain, but she won't know for two weeks until she goes to the doctor again. I'm going to meditate on her situation tonight in an effort to truly see and love her. Then I will try to send her my love as Thich Naht Hahn outlined in his book 'Teachings on Love". Moreover I'm going to be there for her in the uncertain weeks ahead, and beyond. I'm here for Everyone and Everyone includes me.
'D' failed to meet me fore coffee yesterday, I found out this morning that her dog got sick yesterday. I don't know with what but it cost her 30$ to fix him. I'll do something nice for 'D' this week.
S.A.D. asks me for my advice then doesn't take it.Her son is excitable and inconsiderate and he pulled on my shirt the other day at his babysitters house... which pissed me off. I grabbed his wrist and asked him not to do that again. I didn't hurt him but my actions came from an angry, controlling place in my mind so I was in the wrong. As I was in the wrong when I told his babysitter that his behavior reflected on his mother. For my sake and theirs I must apologize. i will be more conscientious of my time with people, more aware of the weight my words carry, and more clear with my intentions. I'll try my best to keep my mindfulness against forming expectations, judgements and assumptions.
Ultimately everyone is going to do what they want to do. I can give advice but I have to take my ego out of it. In other words I shouldn't get upset when people don't take my advice. Effective advice has to come from Right Mind, and manifest in Right Speech and Right Speech should never lead to a resentment.
M.D. Told me at the group picnic;
" You're kind of a big deal around here dude, whether YOU know it or not."
Which is flattering because in my heart of hearts I always kind of wanted to be a big deal, to be popular. It also gave me some insight into my feelings on the subject of popularity. I've been passively bigshotting it lately where the fellowship is considered, I need to beat a path back to my more humble nature before something catastrophic happens;
" I don't want to be a big deal." I told M.D.
But part of me does, I think part of all of us wants to be a 'Big Deal'. The weight-loss, the weightlifting, the new found sobriety, the new spirituality, it's all very 'seductive', but I'm still alcoholic, still unemployed, still homeless and not yet registered for school in the fall. Am I humbled? I should be. I am.
To Live in Vow is to hold up all life, even my own.
The Truth, the real Truth of Reality has already struck. It is and it is not like an arrow in flight. Real Truth, Universal Truth is manifesting from second to second, for all the seconds of my life. No one needs to search for the Truth and in Truth, no one does. Don't seek the Truth, realize that everything is part of The Truth. Dainin Katagiri says; "Your peaceful harmonious life is already here - Look!". Just Look! Another expression of Katagiri's that I like is; "It's not for us to say what the Universe will or will not give us...". But whatever it does give us , whatever 'happens' to us... isn't that Universal Truth? I believe it is. We have Truth, we have Serenity, we have The Three Jewels, The Four Noble Truths, The Eightfold Path, The Four Immeasurable Minds, and even Enlightenment, right now! Right fucking now! Or we can if we so choose, and choose to put in work of a very non-working nature. My weightlifting coach Darius told me;
" I hate those macho assholes at the gym, fitness is for everyone."
The way to Enlightenment is the same, we can't find it for ourselves unless we are willing to accept that Enlightenment (even for ourselves) is for everyone and then seek it for the sake of the many (all) instead of the one. The World is an 'Us' not a 'Me' and a 'You'.
Yesterday my friend told me she has Lymes disease, she had it for two weeks before she went to the doctor and found out. She is concerned that it may have gotten to her brain, but she won't know for two weeks until she goes to the doctor again. I'm going to meditate on her situation tonight in an effort to truly see and love her. Then I will try to send her my love as Thich Naht Hahn outlined in his book 'Teachings on Love". Moreover I'm going to be there for her in the uncertain weeks ahead, and beyond. I'm here for Everyone and Everyone includes me.
'D' failed to meet me fore coffee yesterday, I found out this morning that her dog got sick yesterday. I don't know with what but it cost her 30$ to fix him. I'll do something nice for 'D' this week.
S.A.D. asks me for my advice then doesn't take it.Her son is excitable and inconsiderate and he pulled on my shirt the other day at his babysitters house... which pissed me off. I grabbed his wrist and asked him not to do that again. I didn't hurt him but my actions came from an angry, controlling place in my mind so I was in the wrong. As I was in the wrong when I told his babysitter that his behavior reflected on his mother. For my sake and theirs I must apologize. i will be more conscientious of my time with people, more aware of the weight my words carry, and more clear with my intentions. I'll try my best to keep my mindfulness against forming expectations, judgements and assumptions.
Ultimately everyone is going to do what they want to do. I can give advice but I have to take my ego out of it. In other words I shouldn't get upset when people don't take my advice. Effective advice has to come from Right Mind, and manifest in Right Speech and Right Speech should never lead to a resentment.
M.D. Told me at the group picnic;
" You're kind of a big deal around here dude, whether YOU know it or not."
Which is flattering because in my heart of hearts I always kind of wanted to be a big deal, to be popular. It also gave me some insight into my feelings on the subject of popularity. I've been passively bigshotting it lately where the fellowship is considered, I need to beat a path back to my more humble nature before something catastrophic happens;
" I don't want to be a big deal." I told M.D.
But part of me does, I think part of all of us wants to be a 'Big Deal'. The weight-loss, the weightlifting, the new found sobriety, the new spirituality, it's all very 'seductive', but I'm still alcoholic, still unemployed, still homeless and not yet registered for school in the fall. Am I humbled? I should be. I am.
To Live in Vow is to hold up all life, even my own.
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