August 9th, 2012
I feel really good for having been awake all night. Looking at it now from my 'fourth wind' of energy my moments of woe and despair seem small and distant. But fuck! When I was in the middle of it I couldn't see a way out or the end in sight. Right now I really feel like shark, keep moving or die.
When the dark closes in and the light in my soul shrinks to the eye of a needle,
I have but one resource, My breath is the recourse, In, smile, out, smile, and continue.
Each restless star in the sky plots a course from here to there, by course they force their
way through the black sky, wandering with force until the light returns from shadow,
Waiting for the void to explode again.
Last night I found myself again when blackness stole all the colors from the sky, and the sky became me. Every time I stay out like this it changes me.I'm tired and my legs hurt like hell, but I'm still here, still me, and thankful for it.
It's 9:27 am right now and I have been awake for 27 hours at this point. I have to meet my sponsor at 2pm, afterward I could go to Eve's but that's not a bee's nest I feel equipped to deal with right now. Issues with Eve, Issues with S.A.D... I need to face this shit and move on.
I feel really good for having been awake all night. Looking at it now from my 'fourth wind' of energy my moments of woe and despair seem small and distant. But fuck! When I was in the middle of it I couldn't see a way out or the end in sight. Right now I really feel like shark, keep moving or die.
When the dark closes in and the light in my soul shrinks to the eye of a needle,
I have but one resource, My breath is the recourse, In, smile, out, smile, and continue.
Each restless star in the sky plots a course from here to there, by course they force their
way through the black sky, wandering with force until the light returns from shadow,
Waiting for the void to explode again.
Last night I found myself again when blackness stole all the colors from the sky, and the sky became me. Every time I stay out like this it changes me.I'm tired and my legs hurt like hell, but I'm still here, still me, and thankful for it.
It's 9:27 am right now and I have been awake for 27 hours at this point. I have to meet my sponsor at 2pm, afterward I could go to Eve's but that's not a bee's nest I feel equipped to deal with right now. Issues with Eve, Issues with S.A.D... I need to face this shit and move on.
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