Still, Still, Still August 11th, 2012
Sent a message to my sponsor on Facebook, seems really piteous now, after my friend Ava at the coffee shop cheered me up. Tomorrow is gonna be busy if it ever gets here. Just gotta do the next best thing which is apply at the Technical College, shell out thirty bucks for the placement tests and hope I can take them the same day. Which means my day starts at the ass-crack of dawn tomorrow. Wake up at 4 am, go workout at the YMCA, meet Bill at my storage unit so he can get some of his stuff out, walk to plasma, go to the Technical college, meet 'D' for coffee somewhere in the middle, do laundry, find a bed for the night and just let it go. All my missles will be in the air after tomorrow. Come to far to give up on everything now. People only know the sober me, the driven me, the kind me, I'd like to keep it that way. I left the old me in the Emergency Room on December 12th, 2011. Rest in Peace Asshole, Blue Tara has her arms firmly around me today, sometimes I forget.
A few hours later.
In other news my sunburn finally started peeling today, feels good and painful... like life. I hit the dumbells and the compound rowing machine pretty hard today. Got a surprise when I went to the coffee shop today in the form of the laptop hard drive I've been waiting for. Feeling somewhat uncomfortable with the message I sent my sponsor earlier. Especially since I feel so different now from when I sent it. Ava gave me a hug and wrote me a note.
" You're a grea human being, don't let this break you, you're strong - I know you are. "
Tomorrow is a HUGE day for me, there is a lot going on and I don't want to miss anything or muck it up. Somewhere in the mix of it all I need to check up on Eve at the hospital, probably more for my own peace of mind than hers at this point.
Sent a message to my sponsor on Facebook, seems really piteous now, after my friend Ava at the coffee shop cheered me up. Tomorrow is gonna be busy if it ever gets here. Just gotta do the next best thing which is apply at the Technical College, shell out thirty bucks for the placement tests and hope I can take them the same day. Which means my day starts at the ass-crack of dawn tomorrow. Wake up at 4 am, go workout at the YMCA, meet Bill at my storage unit so he can get some of his stuff out, walk to plasma, go to the Technical college, meet 'D' for coffee somewhere in the middle, do laundry, find a bed for the night and just let it go. All my missles will be in the air after tomorrow. Come to far to give up on everything now. People only know the sober me, the driven me, the kind me, I'd like to keep it that way. I left the old me in the Emergency Room on December 12th, 2011. Rest in Peace Asshole, Blue Tara has her arms firmly around me today, sometimes I forget.
A few hours later.
In other news my sunburn finally started peeling today, feels good and painful... like life. I hit the dumbells and the compound rowing machine pretty hard today. Got a surprise when I went to the coffee shop today in the form of the laptop hard drive I've been waiting for. Feeling somewhat uncomfortable with the message I sent my sponsor earlier. Especially since I feel so different now from when I sent it. Ava gave me a hug and wrote me a note.
" You're a grea human being, don't let this break you, you're strong - I know you are. "
Tomorrow is a HUGE day for me, there is a lot going on and I don't want to miss anything or muck it up. Somewhere in the mix of it all I need to check up on Eve at the hospital, probably more for my own peace of mind than hers at this point.
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